True hope dwells on the possible, even when life seems to be a plot written by someone who wants to see how much adversity we can overcome. True hope responds to the real world, to real life; it is an active effort.Walter Anderson
Oh, I like that, "an active effort". This year has been a year of learning for me. A year of discovery. Often, it has been things I would rather not know, nevertheless, I AM learning and it IS an active effort on my part to keep hope alive. I think that hope can be easy to take for granted. For me, it was something that I thought I should have, if I just had faith enough, or courage enough, or testimony enough. I didn't realize that I could choose to have hope, even when everything else was in short supply.
Hope is a choice, but when you choose it, you have to be willing to wait awhile. I have discovered that prayers are seldom answered right at the moment that I ask. I usually need to be willing to wait and listen, hoping that things will turn out for the best. This month, as I have struggled to put forth the effort to find hope, I am feeling the subtle whispers stirring within. I am breathing in the moment and letting it go, and loving the feeling of hope again.