From the Inside

If an egg is broken by outside force, 

life ends.  

If broken by inside force, 

life begins.  

Great things always begin 

from the inside. 

This year has been a hard one for me.  I have never realized how strong I would need to be.  I never knew how much I would need to change.  I thought that I would never be in this place.  Yet, here I am.  

The outside forces in my life are raging all around me.  I have come to realize that the only way to survive the outside forces in my life is to work on the forces within.  I have had to find a strength that I did not know I had.  I have had to learn to change the very heart of me.  

I have struggled in that change, in learning to trust in Him.  I want this to end, my way.  I want it to all be over right now.  Instead, I have had to learn that I am not in control.  That I am not in charge.  That I can not protect.  

I have had to turn myself around from the inside out.  And He has been with me every, single step of the way.  He hears me when I am crying, He hears me when I am afraid, He hears me when I am alone.  

He is the inside force that makes my life begin.  He is the great thing inside my heart.

Psalms 102:1-2
"Hear my prayer, O Lord, and let my cry come unto thee.
Hide not thy face from me in the day when I am in trouble; incline thine ear unto me: in the day when I call answer me speedily".