If an egg is broken by outside force,
If broken by inside force,
Great things always begin
from the inside.
This year has been a hard one for me. I have never realized how strong I would need to be. I never knew how much I would need to change. I thought that I would never be in this place. Yet, here I am.
The outside forces in my life are raging all around me. I have come to realize that the only way to survive the outside forces in my life is to work on the forces within. I have had to find a strength that I did not know I had. I have had to learn to change the very heart of me.
I have struggled in that change, in learning to trust in Him. I want this to end, my way. I want it to all be over right now. Instead, I have had to learn that I am not in control. That I am not in charge. That I can not protect.
I have had to turn myself around from the inside out. And He has been with me every, single step of the way. He hears me when I am crying, He hears me when I am afraid, He hears me when I am alone.
He is the inside force that makes my life begin. He is the great thing inside my heart.
"Hear my prayer, O Lord, and let my cry come unto thee.
Hide not thy face from me in the day when I am in trouble; incline thine ear unto me: in the day when I call answer me speedily".