I have felt alone for so much of my life. Alone in a room full of people, alone in a town, alone in a city, alone in church. Just alone. I have felt and believed that no one could possibly understand what it is that I am going through. I have felt like I had to keep the bad secret from everyone. Like I had to showcase the good.
Slowly, with a lot of effort and energy, I am learning that is not the case. I am learning that the only way I am really alone is if I choose to believe it. I do have good friends, although they are pretty much as busy as I am. I have my family in my life, even if their needs are different from mine. I am learning that I am really only alone when I choose to be. I just haven't been aware that it was a choice.
I love thinking about having heaven cheer us on. Just to know that someone is rooting for me through all the hard times, and the hurtful times. Just to know that someone has their arms around me even when I fail. To know that they are calling for me to get back up and try again. To know that mistakes are not the end.
It does my heart good to feel like I am not in this by myself. It reminds me that Heavenly Father wants me to succeed in all that I do in His name. I believe that He wants us all to return to His loving embrace. I believe that He doesn't want us left behind in this crazy, mixed up and very messy life. He wants us to embrace each other and keep moving forward, even if it is one wobbly step at a time.
Heaven is cheering us on.
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