I have learned that choosing to have faith can be hard. I think, as we grow older and see more things, it becomes harder to choose to have faith. I remember when I was small, I knew that God would answer my prayers. And He did. He took that small twig and made it into a tree. I would not doubt God. I could not doubt his answers. I have been told that I am blessed to believe. I suppose that might be partly true. But I know that Heavenly Father knew I would go through hard things in my life.
He knew that I would need the strength that only faith could bring me. So I have seen prayers answered (not always in the way I wanted but still undoubtedly answered). I have felt His presence. I have felt His love and protection. I have even been able to escape grave danger, not because of my faith, but because of His blessings. Sometimes, the hardest thing to do is to believe that everything will all work out for the best when we are surrounded by the worst.
I am a constant worrier. I worry about things that have happened, things that are happening and even things that just might happen. Because of that, faith has sometimes been difficult for me. I constantly have to fight my inner need to KNOW and SEE. But that twig that was planted when I was small, has led to some amazing moments of faith in my life.
Heavenly Father works with us in all of our imperfections. He sees the endless possibilities within our hearts and souls. He knows how hard it is for us, in this world of quick answers, to trust in His timing. And so, I hold tightly to the twig from my youth. I try my hardest to believe that He knows all things. I anxiously await His growing me to become who He needs me to be. I let Him plant me where He wants and grow me where He will and as time passes, I bloom and grow, and bloom some more, and my faith continues to grow.
Heavenly Father works with who I am and makes me into so much more than I ever dreamed. I don't like the hard things. I don't like growing pains. But I do like the person that I am becoming. And so, I act on the small twig of faith and He continues to grow inside of me.