What God knows about me
Is more important
Than what others
Think about me.
It has been an interesting month. I went back in for surgery on both my arms. I just had to go to the hospital with "Santa". All the nurses and visitors just had to come and look. Everything went well, all the metal is out of my one arm, and the tendon in my other was also repaired, so for the first time in a very long time, I am nearly pain free. That is a good thing.
Just before my surgery, someone drove into my Post Office, literally. It made quite the mess and has taken a few weeks to clean up. The week before, the pipes burst in the attic. Two completely separate cleanups and four different crews of men. I never knew so many people in my small town could think so badly of me. It has been hard. I have been flipped off, sworn at, yelled at, complained about and pretty generally dished all around.
It has been hurtful and disappointing to say the least.
I have actually been surprised about how angry people can be over a situation that was not our fault in the first place. Yet, we live in a society where inconvenience in a real anger issue. I have really had to work on believing the best of myself and also of not getting angry back.
It has been a loooooong three weeks.
Finally, today, nearly all the work is done and the building can be opened again after hours so that people can get their mail all day long.
I have had some experience thinking about the difference between what God thinks of me and what the town thinks of me. My Heavenly Father knows exactly who I am. He knows my name, He knows my weaknesses, He knows my strengths. He knows how I respond, who I am right now, and even who I want to be.
Sometimes, I think the hardest thing to do is to accept who you are and where you are within yourself. To recognize that you are not, and never have been, who others think you are. That their opinions aren't what is important as you live your life. The One whose opinion matters most of all, already accepts you and loves you for yourself. He will mold you, lift you and magnify you if you will only hold your head up, your arms out, and walk with Him.
He knows that which is most important of all.
He knows who I can become.
Wow, you have been thought a lot. I can say that in the long run the anger that was hurled at you will be short lived. I feel that the people probably let go of the feelings early on or at least by now. Most of it was probably not personal to you but just that it was during a busy time of year. I often wonder how the Savior feels about how we get so busy to celebrate his birthday and in the long run we are too busy to enjoy it all. There are a lot of short temper during that time of year.
ReplyDeleteThat said; I loved your thought on What God thinks of us. I read a book last year entitled; Defined By Christ , it was on this same subject. It is more important what the Savior thinks of us than what other's do. We know that he loves us no matter what.
I hope you are recovering well physically and of course, with your business.
Blessings and hugs!
Dear Patty, I'm so sorry about all you have been through! I pray you heal quickly and thoroughly!!! -BTW., I remember a time when I was also judged and ridiculed; it can really hurt! Heavenly Father told me the same thing you are saying here... it doesn't matter what people think; the truth is all that matters and there is a record of that in heaven. You are a beautiful person. Keep your chin up! :)
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