"In three words
I can sum up everything
I've learned about life:
it goes on".
It certainly does! No matter what is happening in my life, it passes. Sickness, health, depression, anxiety, broken arms or even winter storms, they all move on to the next time, the next season, the next trial or even the next joy. No matter how difficult things seem today, they really will look different as time goes on.
I think that is why depression can be so hard for us to bear. We lose the focus of moving on and become entirely focused in the here and now. It feels as if there is no way to survive whatever our current problems are. Instead, we are in a seeming unending loop of anguish. We stay up and worry, we eat and worry, we sit down and worry. Worry becomes our constant companion. There is no break from the pain.
I am learning to live with depression. You would think, after so many years of suffering with it for most of my life, that I would know. Yet, I still go on and off medication. I still have days and weeks when I quit taking care of myself. I still feel hopeless sometimes. I still forget to depend on the timing of my Heavenly Father. I still lose hope.
Depression is a disease like many others, but because our society doesn't accept it, often those of us with it don't accept it either. We constantly struggle to feel "normal" again. Sometimes I forget that this is my own kind of "normal" and it is ok just as it is. We all have challenges, the goal is to bring light into our lives in spite of them.
So, whatever your trials may be, this too shall pass away, we are not alone, we can endure and we can make a difference. Remember, remember always that you are loved and needed, just the way you are.
Are not five sparrows sold for two farthings, and not one of them is forgotten before God?
But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows.