Today, actually everyday, I struggle with being enough. With feeling like I make a difference. With my need to matter. It is so easy to look around and find my failures.
- I don't keep the house as clean as I should.
- I don't dress up, actually, I dress comfortably 99% of the time.
- I take things personally, even when I don't want to.
- I yell at my children when I get frustrated.
- I don't trust my Heavenly Father enough.
- I try and do too many things.
- I don't fix dinner every night.
- I would rather read than do my chores.
- I don't say, "I love you" often enough.
- I feel overwhelmed most of the time.
And that is not even the tip of the iceberg of my faults. Realistically though, I know that I am not alone. I know that when I look at myself this way, I am in the business of comparing myself to the woman I think I should be. The woman that criticizes me. The woman who knows what I could be if I would only try a little harder and do a little better.
I am only looking at half the picture of myself. I am looking at what I could be if I were perfect. I am looking at the goal without seeing the good things that surround me. I am not looking at my own successes. My own triumphs.
I think that I am probably a lot like you. We each see more of our faults than our good part. We see more of the would'a, could'a, should'a that surrounds us, and we forget the half that is the will, shall, and can. Yet, that half is part of me too.
- It is easy for me to love.
- It is easy for me to take care of people.
- It is easy for me to worship.
- I have faith.
- I write poetry
- I have the ability to overlook the faults in others.
- I love to teach.
- I love to share.
- I love to write about my Heavenly Father.
- I cherish all things family in my heart.
And that is not the tip of that iceberg either. There are many more things that I also do very well. I think one of the biggest mistakes we make is to only share our faults and our failings we forget to share our triumphs and our joys.
Maybe, just maybe, if we are brave, we will find out that parts of us truly are wonderful too. So, my challenge to you today is to find ten things that you are good enough in. Ten things that show who you are and what you do. Ten things that are unique to you.
Come on, try it. You really are good enough!